You know, no one ever tells you
that losing control is hard work,
It’s not something you can just do
Because the results can be catastrophic.
Losing control takes a certain skill
To know when it’s okay to let go
Without fucking up your entire life.
But see, that’s not really losing control
When you premeditate WHEN to lose it.
My sister always tells me to loosen up, live a little,
To loosen the bridle once in a while.
To her I ask:
Woman, when is this ‘while’ you speak of?
And where can I find it?
If I find it and don’t stumble across it,
Does it still count as letting go?
Since I went seeking for it?
Does going ape shit count as losing control?
WHAT IS ‘LOSING CONTROL’?!
Like I said losing control is hard work,
(Partially probably because I don’t know what it MEANS exactly)
Even my self control, which has been putting in 24 hours a day
Everyday- religiously, thinks so.