As the dusk gives rise to the night,
And the breeze brings a promise of peace,
I walk the streets with their night lights,
And let my thoughts wander above the trees.
As the dusk gives rise to the night,
And the breeze brings a promise of peace,
I walk the streets with their night lights,
And let my thoughts wander above the trees.
Loneliness speaks
Greater than words.
And it lingers
Waiting to catch you
At your weakest.
Sometimes in the
Dead of night,
I hear the loneliness
Pounding in my ears
And no amount of
Sound can make it
Go away.
But just like a dark cloud
Loneliness is something,
That needs time
And a little bit of
Positivity and perspective
To make it pass.
Loneliness is an
Unwanted stop
Not the end
Of the journey.
The other day I sat here
And really thought about
What love is.
Cause it’s happening to me
And I don’t know what to
Do about it.
Don’t get me wrong,
I can still sleep without you.
But then again why would I?
If I had the choice to be cocooned
In your arms.
I still have my appetite
But I find myself wishing
You were here to enjoy the meal
With me.
I can still function, but I rather
Thrive as it happens when
You’re around.
I always figured love made you
Somewhat unbalanced.
What with the sweaty palms,
Erratic heartbeats,
Irrational behavior,
I have been told to expect.
But with you I feel,
More grounded. More me.
And I love that me and you
Can also be a we.
If that’s love,
Then I’m all for it.
In your arms
There is quiet
From the buzzing
In my head.
From that part of me
Always moving.
Always trying to
Outrun, to forge ahead.
In your arms
There is a sigh
Of relief
Because it’s where
I rest my head
And breathe.
In your arms
There is a promise
Of comfort
Of sanctuary
Of acceptance.
And whenever
I am afraid
Of losing it all
I find myself
In your arms.
Love for me is not beautiful
It’s scary, paranoid, and insecure.
It’s vulnerable, it’s all encompassing.
Love is like fire.
All the warmth until you get too close
And then it burns.
Loving someone is painful,
It makes me feel imbalanced,
Because there’s a piece of me
That’s missing.
Because I gave it away.
Love for me is you,
And I still want it,
For all its shortcomings,
Because when I am with you,
I feel like I am invincible,
And even if it’s for a moment
It’s worth it.
They tell you don’t let the world break you
It’s not the world, you make you
But they let you judge and then break you
How can the broken you, be the real you?
They tell you make life your main bitch
Not a scratch that you just gotta itch
But when life lands you in a ditch
Who’s gonna come and make you pitch?
They tell you love is a beautiful thing
Makes the sun shine and bird sing,
But when there’s no promise ring,
They leave you, an unwanted thing.
They tell you a lot of lies,
The world is just and nothing dies,
We all live life for it ties,
Its wondrous laughs and woeful cries.
They tell you but I don’t wanna hear
I wanna hide and drown in my fear
Not listen with a hopeful ear,
That life is meant for something dear.
Nightmares is where I will go,
In nightmares at least I know,
That the world will break you,
You’re not the one that makes you,
You can judge and they will break you,
Cause the broken you is the real you.
I always wait till the last minute
Too blurt out how I feel
Wait till it’s too late
And I have, in my mind,
Irrevocably ruined everything.
Have built things so far
That they are ready to collapse
Into a heap of mess
That can’t be untangled.
For complicated creatures
We take simple things for granted
Weave thoughts of our own I
Till they have a life of their own
And we are caught up in it.
In us,
In problems we have made .
Even now when I know I am to blame
I refer to our collective
As if my faults are the faults of all I know.
Because the solidarity in mistakes
Is just as lonely
As the product of the situation
Which I have created
By not opening my mouth in the first place .
And now opening it all over the place
Spewing once sensical thoughts
As nonsense.
I kind of hate
How much I like you,
How one
Simple word from you
Makes me smile
And feel a little brighter .
I kind of fear
How much I think
Of you
Counting the days
Till I am back
In your arms.
Sometimes I feel like
I need to hold back,
Not let you see
How you effect me.
How you make me
Feel all gooey .
Cause it’s way too
Early for this shit.
We are way too new
At this shit.
But then it feels like
We only just met
And it feels like
I have known you for years.
And then I feel like
I like these feelings.
I don’t know if I am
Playing the coward,
Acting the fool,
Channelling the brave,
Or being the explorer,
But one thing I know,
That this thing,
This thing that we have
May be the best thing ever
Or the thing that makes me
Feel like the worst is yet to come.
Yesterday I heard this cicada,
Chirping away as cicadas do,
But instead of outside my home
It was inside
Making a hullabaloo.
It would chirp
And then stop
I would move my eyes up
And then drop
Searching for this cicada.
For a minute I thought
I must have gone crazy
I searched for a while
But as I am lazy
I let the matter drop.
But still this cicada
Kept going.
Chirping and chirping away
Until I somehow
found it
And lead it astray.
And then,
I am sorry to say
I killed it.
Smothered it
Before it could chirp again.
And then,
It was all quiet.
Damn, now I feel bad .
Today I found the lighter
That stupid little thing
You loved so much
But left behind
Like most things in your life.
I was trying to light a candle
And I needed a spark…
A lighter to light a candle
Seems logical.
But I forgot
That your lighter
Is much like you.
Illogical.
But I digress.
Today I flipped
The lighter open
And it fizzled,
Like our relationship.
So now I am sitting
In the dark
Holding a candle, unlit
Your lighter
It screwed me over .
Like its owner
How ironic .